I thought we were on hold?

I have absolutely NO idea how this even happened! Well, okay I have been around here long enough to know the dynamics ;-)

I don't even have words to describe how scared, nervous, worried I am. I'm just trying to grasp that we did it on our OWN... no meds, no timed BDing, I wasn't careful about what I have been eating or drinking, I started a new (intense) workout regimen.

I took an OPK the other day (cd34) on a whim and it came back EXTREMELY positive so I thought, cool maybe I am Oing here soon. Well after a couple days of no symptoms (which I usually have... CM, CP, O pain) and the few comments about OPKs being used as HPTs, I decided I had better POAS and just see... So yesterday morning after DH left for drill I ran to the store and picked them up, went directly to the bathroom when I got home and FORCED out 5 seconds worth of pee. Before the urine wave even got to the control line area the line had already popped up.

So here I am, shaking, needing to really wrap my head around this, hoping this little bean sticks this time. I guess maybe I was more fertile after the m/c?

I have no idea what dpo I am. My only symptoms have been GINORMOUS boobs for the past couple of weeks and sore nips. Oh, and they have been really veiny, like a road map across my chest. I haven't been exhausted like every other pg, so maybe this is a good sign?

I told Batman when he got home from drill :) I bought him the book What to Expect When Your Wife is Expanding. I stuck the book and the test in a bag and left them on the kitchen table. When DH got home from drill I told him I had picked him up a book today that I thought looked kind of funny and that he would like. He starts doing other stuff before looking in the bag and I am in the kitchen going crazy, waiting for him to look in the bag! Finally, he takes the book out and reads the title and is like "Oh this looks funny... WHAT?"
Then he realizes there is more in the bag and pulls out the test... he was in COMPLETE shock! He kept saying,"No way! No way! No way!"

We are waiting to tell our parents until after the first u/s. My IL are on vacation in Jamaica anyway, and my dad is preparing for back surgery this week, so we figured that would give us some extra time :)

Can I get some SBVs sent my way... I'm just so scared for this little bean. Sorry this has been a really jumbled, rambling post.