Remember how I said last week that the surprise u/s helped calm my nerves down about this upcoming one at the OB? Remember how I said I was kind of getting more excited now?
Okay, now forget I ever said that. I'm seriously a basketcase. All because I am so nervous for our u/s this Friday (4days OY!)
For those of you who don't know, we lost our son 5 years ago at 24 wks due to a chromosomal anomoly (triploidy). Needless to say, our 20wk u/s was less than positive and the experience, I fear, has scarred me for life.
I am to the point now that I am dreading Friday.
How can I get past this? How can I forget the past and realize that THIS baby, THIS time, is completely perfect and we won't have any problems or concerns come Friday? How do I calm my nerves and get more excited than scared? How?
I'm a ball of nerves and I am having a hard time even being happy about what SHOULD be something exciting!