It happened again last night. I got home from practice, watched a show with Batman, went to bed and promptly lost it... again. I am really getting sick and tired of all these dang hormones! I thought I was over being crazy emotional. In fact over the weekend I almost felt normal again, so why is all this happening again? GRRRRR! Batman once again is a SAINT and calmed me down, even though he probably should have just washed his hands of me and let me be a brat! I almost spent the night on the couch! Over something so stupid as me not walking the dog. Seriously, who gets mad at that? and SO mad that I was willing to sleep in another room? Really Tiff you need to get you effing head back on straight!! I will be only TOO happy to get these hormones out of my system!
At the prompting of you all, I found out that it can take up to 7 days (and more sometimes) for AF to finally show, so here I continue to wait... I guess it's not so bad, I just want to start another effing cycle already.
One sad thing came out of last night's hormone brawl though :( Batman expressed to me that he kind of hopes that we don't get preggo in the next couple of months (this was after I had calmed down and was back to my relatively normal self thank goodness or I probably would have ripped his head off). WTF? Why am I even taking clomid then? He feels that all of these crazy emotions are really weighing on us, along with all the other crazy changes going on in our lives. He thinks maybe we should take a step back for a couple of months, let life settle down and then get back on the wagon. Um... while I can partly understand where he is coming from, I have to object here. He does this EVERY EFFING TIME he feels even slightly stressed about things going on in our lives. He applies for a new job, better put TTC on hold. He quits smoking, oh better put TTC on hold. He quits gaming and now sees all the projects in the house that need doing, better put TTC on hold. He is having a stressful week at work, maybe we should put TTC on hold. I don't mean to be crazy about this, but COME ON!! It's kind of like the mentality of not having kids until the perfect time in your lives. I have told him time and time again. If we wait until he thinks it's the "perfect time" we will NEVER have kids!!!! Ugh!
I truly believe that he was only saying all this out of stress (as usual) so I will still be taking clomid to see if it will get me to O. It just makes me mad and sad that he even feels this way at all :( I guess that's all part of this crazy TTC process, ya?
Maybe I am crazy myself and he really is right this time?