*sigh*

Batman's friend (you know, the one that got married this summer? apparently I didn't blog about it.) called him up yesterday and announced they were pregnant. After only 3 months of "trying." Lovely.
Why is it that I can't *just* be happy for people when they get preggo? He is a really good friend! Why is my happiness for them always laced with bitterness?

Oh right, I can't get (or stay) pregnant...

*sigh*

Random

-Batman has the AFOQT tomorrow morning. He has been studying nonstop for this for weeks! Please send "pass test" vibes his way.

-I am still anxiously awaiting AF. By my guess if, and that's a big if, I even O on my own this cycle post m/c then she should be here this weekend. I hope, hope, hope, hope that she comes on time so I can move onto the next cycle

-I gave my script to Walgreens for the progesterone suppositories and apparently they can't even special order it in! Grr! So now I am going to have to search for a place that can fill it. I did get some good advice on how to combat the leakage with it though from a coworker. She said inserting it just before bed and then sticking a damp wash cloth between my legs will catch most, if not all of it. She found this worked SUPERBLY so I am going to try it out.

-P90X is still going strong. I haven't really lost much weight yet (thanks to my non-healthy eating on the weekends) but I can feel myself getting stronger already! We started week 3 with a bang last night with chest and back and I am sore (again... actually I don't think the soreness ever really goes away LOL) I am looking forward to next week because you don't do any of the weight videos, just lots of cardio and core work.

-I got to (literally) carry my little love all around Costco! I just love that little guy and he's already stopped looking like a newborn and is looking more like a baby (does that make sense?) Wish I had taken some pics!

-I finally told BFF about m/c. I'm not really sure why I didn't tell her right away. I think mainly it's because I didn't really want to tell her over the phone and I haven't seen her in like 3 weeks... She cried with me and is more optimistic than I am about this upcoming cycle :) She's a great friend!

-It's 15 degrees here right now and I forgot my jacket. It's FREEZING in my office... I just want to go home and bundle up on the couch in front of a movie.

- My BIL and SIL might be moving closer to us :) BIL is up for a new promotion/ job within his company that would move them back to our area instead of the 2 hours away they are now! I'm crossing everything, hoping he gets this job! I love my neice and nephew and wish I got to see them more :)

-Only 2 mos and 2 wks until my trip to DC (can you tell I have a countdown going alread?) I'm really excited. I just got an email too, that our appt for the pentagon tour is scheduled. Yippee!

-Tuesdays are the longest days of the week...

Updated

I updated my blog roll today (can you tell I am extremely bored at work?) As you can see, I read WAY too many blogs (pretty much) on a daily basis. Most of these I could only read at work since I had them bookmarked on that computer instead of my laptop. Now I am business however! I can read them to my heart's content evenings and weekends now too! Yippee :)

So if you have a blog and you aren't on there, but would like to be, leave me a comment and I will add you :) Hope everyone is having a great Friday!

Cheer news

So, did I tell you I lost 3 cheerleaders over the holiday break? Well, I did. One to medical issues, one to grades, and one to finances. That means that our team went from 9 to 6 members. Unfortunately that means that a lot of our pyramids are out of the question (not enough people) as well as limiting a LOT of the stunts we do.

Fortunately though we had a transfer student show interest (aka asked when tryouts were). The advisor decided to have her practice with us a couple of times this week and see if we could just have her join the squad right now. Wonder of wonders she is pretty decent so we have ourselves a new cheerleader! (have you ever heard of an athlete joining a team midseason though? Kind of weird, huh?) Woot!

Let's just see if she causes as much drama as our last two freshman...

Honestly? Thank you!

Thank you Andrea for giving me this award! :)



The rules:

1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.

2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with "Honest Scrap." Well, there's no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.

3) List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

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Ten honest things, huh?
okay here goes...

1) I LOVE to scrapbook! I even have a whole room in our house devoted to it. That said, I haven't stepped foot in that room in over 6 months. For some reason I have no motivation... even though I know once I sit down and start something I won't be able to stop.

2) I absolutely love my hair color, but HATE that it costs me $100 every two months or so. I also love my stylist, but again, hate the price I pay. Apparently, not enough to stop going to her.

3)I'm HORRIBLE at walking my dog in the winter, so instead I try to chase him around our yard (or house) for at least 10 minutes everyday. I also fail at this repeatedly.

4) My mom is taking me to DC in April and I am so excited to go, probably more excited than if Batman were taking me on a vacation to Hawaii (which he isn't... sadly... oh and sorry hun! I'm just so darn excited about this trip)

5) I've always wanted to backpack across Europe, but I know I am WAY too high maintenance for that. I like sleeping in a comfortable (read expensive) hotel room and using cars/ trains/ planes for transportation rather than my own two legs. It's a no-win.

6) I have been considering going back to school for any number of degrees, most recently PT or nursing, but I am too damn scared to do anything about it. For some reason the thought of trying to juggle my job, home life/ Batman, coaching AND going back to school makes my knees go weak, so then I just forget about it. But I still think I want to...

7) My favorite person in the world to be around is Batman. Honestly, he makes my entire world complete and I HATE being away from him. If I could, I would just stay with him all the time 24/7.

8) I am the most overweight I have ever been in my life. :( {Thank you TTC!} And even though I might not be overweight by most people's standards, I hate the way I look and am glad I am FINALLY doing something about it.

9) Facebook really weirds me out. I have an account, but don't even know why. It seems so crazy to me that people actually LOOK for me on there. Am I that important to find? Who even thinks of looking me up? Seriously!

10) Part of me is absolutely terrified of finally getting knocked up. I'm afraid that we will go through what we did 4 and a half years ago. This recent m/c just reiterated that to me :( Somehow I have got to learn to LET IT GO!

Okay so now for my tags...

Jen, Ophelia, Jayme, MrsMoeJoe, Coco, Katie, and T-Party

Boring, boring

I haven't really had much to blog about. Our weekend was crazy busy, at least it was for me. I had a cheer fundraiser Friday night and all day Saturday in which we helped out with a local cheer competition. Sunday I made Batman run a bunch of errands with me since BFF bailed (she just HAD to go tubing with family... ;D)
We had a nice quiet evening at home where I indulged in a few adult beverages (okay more than a few) and went to bed feeling very, very good. There are some small perks to being on a hold cycle ;-)

See? Boring...

Just waiting to start another cycle

Youch!

So Batman received P90X from my parents for Christmas along with a set of click-weights. He was so excited because really it was the ONLY thing he truly wanted. He/ we read through all the materials, took a look at the nutrition plan, although we won't be following it since we read this book and the P90X plan is kind of a joke compared to it. We watched the "bring it" video. He was totally pumped! I was happy they listened and got it for him and was really excited to get started with it myself... now I'm not so sure.

For the past 4 days we have been going through the program and while I am excited to lose weight and get healthy, I'm not so happy about the way my body feels. I realize they say "no pain, no gain" but did they really mean so much pain that I can't even move my fingers to type without something hurting? Sheesh! The only thing keeping me going is knowing I WILL lose all the weight I have gained since starting this last round of TTC 18 mos ago.

Day 1 had us start with shoulders and arms. Honestly the workout wasn't as difficult as I thought and I made it through the whole thing thinking, "this isn't so tough, I can totally do this." To follow up all weight days you do Ab Ripper X- 15 minutes, not too bad.

I was only marginally sore come Day 2 so figured I was going to be alright.

Day 2 had us doing plyometrics... here is where hell started. If you have never done a plyometrics work out, my suggestion is to NEVER do one. Basically the whole point of it is to "produce fast, powerful movements, and improve the functions of the nervous system, generally for the purpose of improving performance in a specific sport." (wikipedia). For the P90X plyometrics work out you spend an hour + jumping, squatting, lunging and all sorts of the 3 combined. It was torturous, but again by the end I was ecstatic that I had made it through the entire program. My muscles were shaky and fatigued, but I felt great! Then came Day 3...

Day 3 had us doing chest and back. This meant lots of push ups and lots of pull ups. I really can't do a pull up on my own so I used a chair for assistance. By the end of workout I couldn't even do 1, even using the chair for help! My pushups went to my knees and I even had trouble doing those.

Day 4 (today) had us doing Yoga (aka Yoga X- everything ends in an X). Since I can't really move any muscule in my body without experiencing EXTREME pain, Yoga X didn't really go so well. The first half hour was INSANE! It got slightly easier for the second half hour which is where I had to stop because I had to get ready for work. I'm kind of afraid to go all the way to the end though. Even my face hurts.

Tomorrow I believe we do a lower body work out with weights...

Oh joy!

To sum up all this, I have to say, I couldn't be happier with this program. It works you until you can't give anymore and then makes you do another one. Sore muscles aside, I really feel fantastic and can't wait to see the after pictures in 86 days. I may post the before and after... or not. I'm not sure I want the world to see how out of shape I really was... eek! That's a scary thought. We'll see what happens I guess... ;-)

Thank You! and a new plan

I just wanted to say thank you to all my lovely blogger friends that have sent prayers, ((hugs)), support, kind words, everything. It has really meant a lot to me and Batman and helped us get through this difficult time.

Our hearts are sad, but each day gets better. :)

Thank you!!

My appt with the doc was relatively uneventful. I had the u/s and both ovaries look good. He instructed us to take this cycle off, but we are able to jump back on the TTC train at the start of next. He would like for me to continue on 150mg of Clomid MONITORED (woot!) and then around CD14 or so he wants to do a hcg trigger. Then he prescribed 100mg progesterone suppositories (not looking forward to that) for post O. I'm not sure why the prog supps, but he did say I was on the lower end of normal and that it couldn't hurt... What do you all think? Also, what are the s/e of prog? I assume I will be an emotional basketcase as any hormone seems to have that effect on me. He wants to do a couple days of b/w (I think CD3 and then 7dpo?) and an u/s or two to check out how the follies are progressing. I am super excited to get this next cycle started already!! I just hope my body cooperates and AF shows on time! Please not another annovulatory cycle... pretty, pretty please!

Try - Try - Again...

I don't ever want to have to apologize for speaking too soon about any type of "mishap" in life, but alas it might just be the case this time around. Soon after our great news of new life... our little egg decided he/she was not going to stick where it was suppose to. To all you mothers and those trying to be, my heart goes out to you and I sincerely wish I could hug every one of you. T's sends her warm-wishings and thanks you all for your support, care, and love. On the positive side we made it further this time around than we have since Gabriel - it seems like things are starting to have a feel of normalcy. A great-unknown-cliche-writer once said:

If at first you don't succeed... well isn't that the best part of trying to have a baby? ;)

Part III with a surprise

Even if you missed part I and part II, you really, really, really need to go and read Part III on Batman's blog. The ending is the best... you will be rolling ;-)