I'm having one of those days where I just feel like a bad mom all around. I've yelled, gotten mad, given B an enormous amount of time outs, snapped, ranted and raved... I'm at my wits end :( And through all that I just want to sit and have a good cry (and a very large bottle of wine... Which of course I can't for a while, so crying may have to do).
I have a feeling a lot of this is pregnancy hormones coupled with a normal case of "terrible twos" behavior but I feel like such a failure regardless.
I think I'm in much need of a night off which, thankfully, I'm getting a couple hours to myself as Batman is taking B out on a "date" tonight (that sounds kinda weird lol)
I know we all have days like this, but this one's hitting me hard for some reason. I don't want to be that mom. I want to be better than that. I don't like losing my cool around B. I want her to learn better ways of coping than yelling or getting so frustrated you snap. I'm not being a great example these days, and I fear she's going to be an emotional basket case just like I was growing up. I want better for her. She deserves better.
Sorry for the rambling. Im just at the end of my rope today, this week, this month. Ahhh!