So I JUST got off the phone with one of the nicest nurses known to man (C my docs f/t nurse). I'm not completely happy with his response to my questions/ concerns.
He does think that upping the Clomid is worth trying this round so C is calling the pharmacy as we speak. HOWEVER (and this is a big one) he apparently doesn't believe in doing u/s until I am on a higher dose than 100 mg (aka needs to be 150mg) because he believes that the otc/ grocery store OPKs are reliable enough to tell me I am Oing. Part of me is saying in my head "Hooray! the Clomid is increasing so there is a higher chance that I might actually O" On the other hand, part of me is saying "WTF? Shouldn't we be making sure the Clomid is actually doing SOMETHING towards making me O, as in making the follies grow at least a little?" I mean if Clomid isn't even doing anything to those little buggers, WTF am I even taking for at all? Argh! I realize that some of my emotionality (okay not even a word, but it works) comes from my PMSing but I seriously want to cry, scream, punch a wall, AAAHHHHH!!!
I got so excited yesterday when the nice COMPETENT nurse from the clinic thought it would be the best idea to have me monitored at least a little, and now I am hearing that he doesn't even want to do that until I get a f*cking + on a d*mn OPK... which only tells me that there is a LH surge, not specifically that my follies are growing enough to release a viable egg!!! It seriously pisses me off! Maybe I am just being a brat about the whole thing, but I am kind of tired of feeling like I am never going to get a BFP! I wish Dr W could just be a little more proactive. I mean if I do get a BFP, it just means more $$ in his pocket.
Okay end of rant. I guess I am headed to the pharmacy to pick my Rx.
Oh and PS- don't you think it's cutting it a little close, calling in the script on CD 3 at 3:30pm, when I need to take it today, and SOON!? Gaaahhh! Oh the irritation!