I've never been this pregnant before and it kind of scares me. to death.
We lost our son at 24 wks. We lost another baby before 6 wks.
Most days I am really okay. No panic attacks, just peace that Olive is doing well, healthy, perfect. But then there are those times when I go in to terrified mode and nothing reassures me. It's sad really because all I really want is to go back to the ignorant pgy bliss I had with the first one.
Too bad that will never happen. I'll always have worries; always have moments of terror; always have panic.
One of the few things that helps during those times is knowing that if she were born in the next couple weeks, her chances of survival are considerably higher than, say, a month ago. It's the small things, I guess.
I know I can't be alone on this. I can't be the only mom-to-be with overwhelming fears. Can I?